2021.08.01 01:18 edgeofuckery I just want to disappear
I have a boyfriend who I love with all my heart, a family who loves me, and I'm fortunate enough to be a full time college student. But I can't help but feel like sometimes I'm just not made for this world, which leads to suicidal thoughts. I simply don't want to be here and can't understand why I deserve to be. I have a pretty healthy lifestyle, including daily weightlifting, reading, outdoor activities, etc. But at the end of the day I feel like I just pretend to feel it all, and it all seems pointless. 8 months ago, I had an abortion. It was an unexpected pregnancy in an unstable situation, so I felt trapped and therefore aborted my baby. My boyfriend was completely supportive of my decision and he allowed me to do this as my decision only with no pressure. Ever since then, I've been suffering with depression and suicidal thoughts. Some days I feel okay, but some days I feel like I don't deserve to be here if my baby doesn't either, and I regret it more than anything. I'm not sure if this is something I should see a therapist for (considering I struggle with talking about my feelings anyways), but I'm scared to ask for help and I'm too stubborn to reach out for it. My whole life I've bottled things up, so that's all I know to do as an adult in these situations. My boyfriend is aware of how I feel right now regarding the abortion, and he's always there for me, but I don't speak of it often and I'm sure he doesn't realize the length of how horribly this has affected me. I have no motivation, have become a loner, and I can't bring myself to care about anything. Sometimes I smoke marijuana or take other drugs, or drink alcohol because when the pain gets bad I resort to whatever it takes to block my emotions from myself. This is simply just a vent, and I apologize for the lengthy post.
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2021.08.01 01:18 MAC_Addy Finally, after a year of being out of stock!
2021.08.01 01:18 ingodyoutrust suggestions? i used to like it but now i think i hate it and i’ve put so much work on it and it sucks and i want to cry:(
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2021.08.01 01:18 Mx-11 Suggestions for coconut milk low in saturated fat?
Has anyone found a brand of coconut milk free of emulsifiers while also being low in saturated fat? I use coconut milk somewhat frequently and it just seems unhealthy to me with the level of saturated fat it has. I use [this one].(https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07ZW8WFP6/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_awdb_imm_A21E8MDM2YQRRDAKBXK7?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1)
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2021.08.01 01:18 biscuit310 45 [M4F] - Hmmmm, I'm a little bit lonely these days...
Do you remember this scene from Rushmore? I've been thinking about it a lot recently. I feel like Mr. Bloom some days.
But I'm not here to talk about me. I'd like to hear about you! What is your story? How has the summer been playing out for you? Is that crazy girl from work still crazy?
I've been told I'm good as giving advice, so armchair psychiatrics are also available. 5 cents.
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2021.08.01 01:18 DiddlyDoodilyDoh Massive congratulations to u/Opiodsarekillas0814 and Eazy MFkin E, you are this week's top bananas. We ended up with a tie. Thank you to everyone for joining, good game.
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2021.08.01 01:18 Brew____ How do you tickle a rich girl?
2021.08.01 01:18 Final_Reception_5129 [WTS] Trijicon Credo HX 1-6 SFP with Vortex scope caps $775 (GA)
Like new in box. Only mounted, never zeroed.
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2021.08.01 01:18 Vera_Anne_Wolf Gotta be the best reaction to transmigrating as a Villainess I’ve ever seen 🤣 The Tyrant’s Only Perfumer
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2021.08.01 01:18 v8powerage Yes
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2021.08.01 01:18 Cloverfield887 Are japan canada Italy united kingdom and the usa allies?.
2021.08.01 01:18 HereForPinaColadas The best position to sleep in? Obviously using your paws to hold your feet!
2021.08.01 01:18 Magic_dragoon Is there space underneath that bottom shelf? If so, how do I access it? Sorry that the pictures are so nasty.
2021.08.01 01:18 New_Traffic_4983 Let’s go!!!
After exactly 5 weeks my CMIYGL shirt is about to arrive! I’m so excited and i thought I might as well celebrate on my favorite Reddit community.
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2021.08.01 01:18 LightningElf444 Pray for Businesses
Please pray for businesses across the globe to love their customers and send love to businesses for their hard work. Pray also for stability of businesses.
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2021.08.01 01:18 lukedm5 Tomorrow’s DOTD is 89 Bale so don’t waste any packs trying to get him 👍🏻
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2021.08.01 01:18 CptnNoOne Tonga's Shirtless Flag Bearer Rocks The Opening Ceremony Of The Tokyo Olympics, But With One Exception.
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2021.08.01 01:18 banannameese Um...
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2021.08.01 01:18 EntertainerOk8710 Hehe
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2021.08.01 01:18 WhereAreOurDix Bolsonaro e os casas jogando playstation😀👍
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2021.08.01 01:18 Harehau hey guys, what u think about my new tattoo ? my favourites silver hair characters. 🤣
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2021.08.01 01:18 BlueDog_Lodak Hopkins, me, acrylics, 2021
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2021.08.01 01:18 mastomi One of my favourite way to enjoy tempeh
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2021.08.01 01:18 giomaiele where to learn to read schematics ?
Hello Folks ! I hope everyone is doing well ! 😊
I've been following this sub for a while as i am interested in the matter, however, i have no idea about electronics.
I would like to build pedals, clones, diy kits, etc, but i don't really know where to begin. I just don't want to buy a kit and follow the steps, i believe that if I learn how to read schematics, i will be able to enjoy it more, as well as start building or modifying my own stuff ! This is something that looks frightening and complex! Any advices on where to start, your experience with this, and maybe a good website/tutorial where the schematics are explained, how to read them, etc?
Thanks a lot to everyone for taking the time ;) !!!!
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2021.08.01 01:18 raddison Wait for when she does the 2nd clip